life at the moment.

Tonight I went to Metro South Church to see the Good Friday Service. It was very interesting! It made me think about my life. It made me think about how things used to be when I was going two years ago. I dont like the fact that im graduated, because now I can't go to ALIVE. I think that with me graduating and not able to go anymore made me fall behind. I do go to UNITE but I just feel awkward there. I feel like a baby. Im not mature enough or something. Im not even in college. Im pretty much doing nothing with my life. I am however trying really hard to get a job! I've had a interview with arbys and I have another one with them this coming Monday! I hope that I get this job! I have been applying everywhere! Michigan sucks!

The other morning, Phill finally told me that he is in love with me! <3 It was the best thing I've heard in a long time! I have always had strong feelings for him, even when we broke up. I always and no matter what cared about him. I knew there was something between him and I and he finally seen that. I just adore him so much! <3 He is such a blessing to me and my life. I don't know what I would do without him again. I hope and pray that we stick together for a long time, rather yet the rest of our lives. He is truly amazing. I love him so much. And its not just a love, its a IN love statement. I do live with him too, and that is so awesome. I am thankful for such a great place to live and be myself. I love my life with him. Even though we fight, hes still my favorite person in the whole wide world. <3
i love youuuuu phillip paul johnson<3333

Other then the Metro, Job, and Phill situations! I have been kinda depressed in my head but not enough to show, or maybe im just strong enough to not show when im around people, even phill. My great Grandma Flick only has a few days left, and that just makes me so sad. That woman is so beautiful, and has such a beautiful heart. I can just hear her voice in my head right now and it brings warmness to my heart. She always had a heart for her family. She is such a babe! I am very thankful to have her in my life, and be so kind and generous and loving!

Ohhhh!!! I need a car/truck/van really bad! I just need one so bad so I can get a job and drive back and forth! I am going to walk and ride my bike for now! But I just really wish I had one so I can drive my friends to where ever they need to go when they dont have rides, because I understand how it feels when no one will drive you or you dont have a car. I also one want so I can visit my family, and do things that deal with driving. such as like carpooling and stuff. I just want to use my vechicle as a gift from God and help others and my future and now situations! I have doctors in Ann Arbor and there is no way I can make it to them because I have nothing to drive or friends that are willing to drive me all the way out there and spend all day there with me. No one has patiences for that.
So I really need a car and im trying to get a job to save money for it!

Blahhh! Ive wrote so much! but thats my life that I can think of for now.
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thanks for reading if you did.
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